Tomorrow

Tomorrow is Sarah's Birthday Party!!!! I can't wait!!! She is such a princess, so we are having aprincess and Tangled theme going. 

I hope it doesnt rain tomorrow, so please pray it doesnt, cuz we're having it at a big park!!!!


Yay!

The Time Has Come

To leave somewhere. I just don't know which place to leave.


Any suggestions?

I cried a little.

I thought I was going to bawl my eyes out yesterday when my baby turned three. But, i only cried a little.

She had a great day. We spent the whole day together just mommy daddy and sarah and we saw a movie and played and all around had a great time.

Friday is her birthday dinner, and then sunday is her birthday party at the park. *let's pray it doesn't rain!*

For My Precious Angel.

My bear turns three tomorrow. Three years old! I can't believe it's been three years since I was in labor and gave birth to the most amazing little girl in the world.  It makes me sad, but I am also so very proud because of how smart, and sweet, and kind, and funny, and amazing, and and all around awesome kid she is.

I will admit it though, she is S-P-O-I-L-E-D SPOILED. She can be rotten at times, but I honestly don't think it's as bad as it seems. She says please and thank you, and she asks before getting things. Yeah, she throws a fit when she doesn't get her way, but what toddler doesn't do that? Either way, she is my princess, and she knows it lol. 

We are having a special night with mommy and daddy tomorrow, and may go to the movies. And then friday is her special dinner with mommy and daddy and the grandparents on both sides. (she gets to choose where we go for dinner). And then her birthday party is Sunday! I think I am going to take her tomorrow to pick out her cake at Wal-Mart. She will most likely want Princess or Tangled. (She is obsessed with that movie)

Wow, this has been nothing but sarah. lol it's okay, because she's awesome.

 this was from her first birthday,

this was from her second birthday

 this is just a few weeks ago....

and from when she was born.



My goodness, she has grown so much, and has gotten so beautiful!!!!




p.s. happy birthday to you on wednesday.

Waiting....

Sitting and waiting at the hospital for my sister to get out of surgery.  I'm so glad I brought my laptop with me, so that I can blog and facebook and just play in general while I wait.

I woke up at 630 this morning, and ten minutes later, Sarah woke up.  I could have sworn that I would have to pry her away from the bed this morning, but I am so proud of her for being a big girl and getting up and dressed with only a bit of whining.

I hate hospitals. Yes, they are great because babies are born here, and lives are saved. But lives are also lost. and at this hospital, i have lost many people in just this year alone.

I can't deal with it anymore. But I know my sister is going to be just fine. She's just having an appendectomy and a tube and ovary removed. It's routine stuff, so she's gonna be just fine. 

I'm where I'm meant to be.......

It's like the fog has lifted, honestly. I have come to the realization that within a month, it is my DESIRE to be out of red lobster. 

I just need to figure out where I can apply. I have applied at so many different places already and nothing has happened.  I feel like I am not capable of anything when I don't even get a call for an interview. 

I can't be a host for the rest of my life, and I don't want a job where I am on my feet all day long. 

If anyone knows of any job openings, NOT IN THE RESTAURANT OR RETAIL business, please let me know.

kthnxbai

at last i see the light

this song will be incorporated into my wedding somehow

All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you


All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were 
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

And at last I see the light

And it's like the fog is lifted

And at last I see the light

And it's like the sky is new

And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you

On the Road to Recovery

I am on the mend! I rested for about 8 hours on saturday, and i rested for another couple today.  I feel better than I did, but I am not back to 100%.  Thank you for your comment, it made me feel better.

Anyone have any opinions on those e-cigs? I would love to hear your input.


Either way, have a great night, I know I will!

seriously

this has been the week from hell. I lose ANOTHER person close to me from church, go to her funeral, have to miss 3 days of work and i have bronchitis. i don't care about grammar right now, i just want to fucking feel better.

anyone got any magic medicine????

not so silver

it's over....

so over.

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

SERIOUSLY. IF YOU TAKE ONE MORE PERSON FROM ME THIS YEAR, I AM NOT GOING TO BE OKAY. I WILL NOT BE OKAY. I WILL NOT BE OKAY.


PLEASE GOD, STOP IT. I CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE


edit:

i just found out a while ago that a dear friend, my other mother, and grandmother rolled into one, will be taken off life support saturday. she has been in the hospital for two months and has had lung problems for a while. so, that was a rant. i could really use a beer right now. i wish i had some yuengling

I yam what I yam.

I am a mother
I am a fiance
I am a hard worker
I am cook
I am a baker
I am a seamstress
I am a saleswoman
I am a woman

I am happy

(this isn't a poem, I just wanted to do that)

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Give me time, I will say more when I am ready.

But yes, I did see her tonight. And she looked good. But please, give me time. Don't push, but be patient. I don't know how the communication will be, but just give me time.

A silver lining

Troy and I may be getting an apartment soon! I don't want to jinx it, so that's all I am saying about it. 

:-D yeah, i'm excited

help

just help me...

Stupid Wisdom Teeth

I sit here watching family guy, waiting for troy to get here, and I am sitting in pain. Absolute fucking pain.  My wisdom teeth are coming in, at least I am pretty sure.

I have a dentist appt in two weeks, and after that I may have to have oral surgery. It depends on what is going on with my mouth.  I wish my mouth could be normal, but no, I have weak teeth, and spaces where teeth never grew in, and all my front teeth are crowded. you WOULD think that I would have had braces a LONG time ago.

I just saw on tv that Arthur comes out on friday. OMGGGGGG I think maybe troy and I may go see it! But I do know that NO MATTER WHAT my sister and I are going to see water for elephants when it comes out. I loaned the book to her so I hope she is enjoying it.


I may apply for a new position at david's. wish me luck. i don't think I will get it, but there's no harm in trying right??

i hope i get considered and not laughed at. i think i may have truly found my calling.



EDIT: I just remembered, Sarah's school is having PICTURE DAY next wednesday!!!!!!!!!!! My baby is gonna be 3 in three weeks. can't effing believe it!  My baby girl is gonna be THREE! That day is gonna be a special day for mommy and sarah. we are gonna go get our nails done or something special. i can't wait!


Edit again:
i have to post this video. it's sara ramirez singing brandi carlile's "the story" its FREAKING AMAZING

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8xeIgAinQc

Water For Elephants

I know nobody reads this, but I feel better when I write in here.

I just read water for elephants. That book was the best book I have read since....well...ever. To me, it was even better than twilight, true blood and harry potter put together. I cried, I laughed, and I got angry.

It was a wonderful book and I am so glad I read it before seeing the movie.

My sister and I are gonna go see it together. Hopefully opening night.

All done here.