Day six? maybe seven?

a song that reminds you of a certain place....

this one is tough. i can remember certain places, but no song comes to mind except one.  my sophomore year orchestra played the best song in the world. it brought everyone to tears and i even cried a little.  i wish i still played well and that i could play that song. it's called "Fantasia on a Theme by Thomas Tallis" by R. Vaughan Williams.  This man FOCUSED on the violas. So we actually got a cool part. This song is actually on the soundtrack of Master and Commander: The far side of the world. (a wonderful movie by the way)

listen to the song, it is beautiful, and if you have any interest in this type of music, you will love it

six

Day six, a song that reminds you of somewhere.

Muse- unintended.

reminds me of last year around this time. amandas wedding. it was such a fun time and it was when my two best friends were finally together again.  we had a great week spending time together, and to top it all off, we celebrated a friend being married. this is the song that the bridesmaids walked down the aisle to.  the next time we all get together again will be my wedding.
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I LOVE MY NEW JOBBBB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


it is so fun, it is so relaxed, and it is just awesome. it sucks that i dont sit at all, but i will get over it.  one thing i am doing when i get my first tmobile paycheck is getting a pair of toms.  i cant wait.

also, i will be buying the new sookie stackhouse book "dead reckoning" CANT WAIT!!!!! also true blood season 4 starts at the end of the month!!!!!


fuh-reaking WOOT

This day was crazy

Day five: a song that reminds you of someone

This song reminds me of my sister lol. She and i will blare this song on the radio and do our own made up dance moves to the song. Also, ANYTHING by nsync remind me of my sister. she is amazing and she is an awesome sister.

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Today after I took sarah to school, tornado warnings start popping up! I was worried because she was at school and not with me. But I called the school and everyone was fine.
When i went to pick her up they told me the story:
      They had all the kids in the safe place. And what they do is they have the kids crouch down and they put their nap pads over them for more protection.  She goes to school with about twenty other kids, so they were all hysterical.. When they went to check on sarah (amanda's mom is the director and pays special attention  to bear) she wasn't hysterical or making a single noise.  When they checked on her, she looked up and her face was all puffy. She had been crying silently and not making a single peep. My baby was so good! Yes, she was scared but she didn't let anyone know and she did what she was supposed to do! I was so proud of her, and so we took her to get ice cream tonight.

My baby is such a good kid. Words cannot describe how proud i am to be her mother.  I cant get over how amazing she really is.

quatre

Day four of this challenge.....

just so you know i may just randomly start forgetting to do this lol

a song that makes me sad:

this song was my brother's class song in 98.  this song was also played at his close friends funeral ten years ago. a boy that grew up down the street from  us. and i graduated with his younger brother ben  (sanderson).  i hear it and it makes me cry. sean to this day still cant listen to it.

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my brother and i are very close and so it find it weird but good at the same time that we are affected emotionally by the same things. out of all three of my brothers, sean is the one who will express his emotions.
i love my brother and this one is for him







and be thankful youre not in kc.... BAD storms

day trois

Day Three

A song that makes you happy. EASY

this song reminds me of when sarah was born and it makes me smile everytime i hear it. :)

getting a head start

Day two of the music challenge!

My least favorite song.....

that's easy! ANYTHING by nickelback!!!!

I dont know why, but I hate nickelback with a passion. so there ya go....


Work tomorrow! Went out with my momma today to make sure i knew how to get out there lol...

I'm excited!

Okay, I'll do it :)

Thirty Day Song Challenge Day One- Your favorite song

I have a few, but I'll only post like one, or two

This is my favorite, because A: i LOVE MCR and b: it's troy's and my song. the first time we kissed, we had this song playing. lol weird, i know, but it has a huge meaning for us.  and yeah.

that's all i can think of lol


there ya go. stay tuned for more! and i start my new job tomorrow! im nervous and excited at the same time! gotta clean now!

I am still angry.

I am still angry.  Angry that my cat had to be taken away from me. Angry that I have lost so many in less than six months. Angry that I couldn't do anything about it.

I know that God has a plan for everyone, and He does everything for a reason. I know that He gave me Sarah. And I thank him for her.  She is such a blessing in my life, I don't think I could imagine one day without her.

But that still doesn't change the fact that God has taken six that I love away from me, just in the first five months of the year.

I am angry. Hurt. Sad. Pissed off. Grieving.

Is it bad to say that if it had been one of the other kittens, I may not have been as affected? I just fell in love with Milton.  He was an outcast. Kinda like me and troy.

I would just like to know WHY. WHY God had to take him away from us.  Is that too much to ask?

Milton is with them all

Milton went to heaven today. We took him to the vet and had him put down.  Then, we took him  home and buried him in my parents' backyard.

Sarah says "Milton is in heaven.  He is with God and he loves God."

I used to love mondays

But this coming monday is going to suck.  We are going to take milton to be put down.  He is not healthy enough to have a happy life, and he isn't growing. He's three months old and looks like he is still 6 weeks old.

I am very angry right now. Angry, hurt, sad, PISSED THE FUCK OFF.

Since August, I have lost 7. SEVEN people close to me. (I haven't lost milton yet, but it's only too soon)

It's just not fair.  I mean, I am stoked that I will be starting a new job on the 23rd, but really?God, really? You just had to rain on my parade by taking my cat away from me.  Troy's cat. SARAH'S FUCKING CAT!!!!!!

How are we supposed to explain this to her?!?!? She's three! She is going to ask me on monday afternoon "mommy, where's milton???"

I am pissed.

"...he will be our friend for always and always and always." ~ Rudyard Kipling

I sure hope this isn't going to be number six for me, God. I am having a hard time this year, with all of the ones you've taken away from me for no damn reason.  He is only twelve weeks old, and he is nothing but a sweetheart. Please, God, I need this kitten. He needs me and troy. We are all he would have and to take him away from us, it's not fair.

I love this baby, like he is my actual child. Wait, rephrase, he IS my child.  I have been with him since he was born, and he is my child, and he is troy's child.  We need to have him get healthy. Please, God, please.

I am so happy

Well, if you didn't read the last post, I will let you know, that I got the job at tmobile!!!

I start a week from monday and I am so unbelievably excited!!!! Okay, so it's at oak park mall, and that's quite a trek, but, it's a better job than i have right now.

FIRST OFF, it's part time, but i still get FULL BENEFITS!

SECOND OFF, its 9.76 an hour, PLUS commission!!

THIRD OFF, DISCOUNTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

yeah, im happy.




ps. so sorry again, i hope you are doing okay

FINALLY

I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB

What a Weekend

This was a crazy weekend!!!

Friday morning, I had an interview with Tmobile at 8 am in Overland Park, KS. I made it there in time and I did really well! I will post my progress about that.  I also got to have DUNKIN DONUTS!!!!!!!!! I haven't had that in almost 5 years!!!! It was amazing!

Saturday, I worked literally all day. It sucked, but I will be making commission on friday. thank god.

Yesterday was Sarah's birthday party, and it was a blast! Family and my best friend ( in town) was able to come and enjoy it, and take wonderful pictures!  Sarah made out like a freakin' bandit!!! So many clothes, and so many toys! My sister got her roller skates! She is so excited to use them! Now I just need to get Bear a helmet and knee pads and we will be good to go!

Today, Troy and I are (kinda) celebrating our four year anniversary.  Four years ago today, was our first official date.  And I couldn't be happier. I am sitting in the arm chair right now, while he is lying on the couch taking a nap before work, just like bear is taking a nap.

I could make this post real sappy about how these past four years have been so amazing, but instead I will use pictures!  ahahahahah  

All of the pictures posted are from the past years, Amanda had posted some pictures from yesterday, but I can't seem to save them, so she will have to email them or i will have to steal them ahah but here they are.

I am so lucky to be a part of this beautiful family.