Lately, I've been planning a wedding, planning a new life. Finally this summer, hopefully Troy and I will be getting our own place. I basically live at his house but we are GOING to get our own place.
The wedding is going to be October 27, 2012. I know its a year and a half away, but we want it in the fall and we want enough time to plan it.
I can't wait. I can't wait to have my dream wedding. and I can't wait to finally have the name of Halter.
I know this is a selfish post, but I dont care lol.
Have a nice day errbody.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
I wish you were here.
Last night, I found an old video tape. It had me as a newborn on it, me as a toddler in the tub, and my grandparent's (on my dad's side) 50th wedding anniversary party. It made me realize how much I miss my grandparents. All four of them. It made me wish they were still here, and that they would be able to see my daughter grow up. I miss them every day, but this year it seems to be extremely high.
I just lost my grandfather, Gra, on my dad's side in january. He was the last living grandparent i had. And then two weeks ago, I lost my surrogate grandfather from my church. I don't know how to deal with all this death. It's eating at me inside and I am afraid that one of these days I am going to just break down and lose it.
I am thankful I had Sarah when I did. This way I know she will have her grandparents for a longer time than I had. I thank God every day for the fact that I am a young mother.
So to all those who still have their grandparents living, call them, and tell them you love them. Send them a card, just thanking them for being alive. Don't take them for granted, because you know that they won't be there forever.
Wow, this is a long post so far. Now to update on how hectic life has been lately.
Ever since I started working at David's Bridal, home life has been a little hard. Sarah has entered the terrible twos and it's been hard. I can't seem to say no sometimes, and it doesn't help. I need to become more stern in my decisions for her, and I need to be there for her. It doesn't help that when I get home from work, I am bone tired. All Sarah wants when I get home is to love on me, and give me hugs, and I am too tired to deal with it! Does that make me a bad mom? I am trying to work hard to get a better job, and with this comes sacrifices that will help in the long run. That doesn't make me a bad mom does it???
Ugh, I am just venting and tired. Go figure.
I just lost my grandfather, Gra, on my dad's side in january. He was the last living grandparent i had. And then two weeks ago, I lost my surrogate grandfather from my church. I don't know how to deal with all this death. It's eating at me inside and I am afraid that one of these days I am going to just break down and lose it.
I am thankful I had Sarah when I did. This way I know she will have her grandparents for a longer time than I had. I thank God every day for the fact that I am a young mother.
So to all those who still have their grandparents living, call them, and tell them you love them. Send them a card, just thanking them for being alive. Don't take them for granted, because you know that they won't be there forever.
Wow, this is a long post so far. Now to update on how hectic life has been lately.
Ever since I started working at David's Bridal, home life has been a little hard. Sarah has entered the terrible twos and it's been hard. I can't seem to say no sometimes, and it doesn't help. I need to become more stern in my decisions for her, and I need to be there for her. It doesn't help that when I get home from work, I am bone tired. All Sarah wants when I get home is to love on me, and give me hugs, and I am too tired to deal with it! Does that make me a bad mom? I am trying to work hard to get a better job, and with this comes sacrifices that will help in the long run. That doesn't make me a bad mom does it???
Ugh, I am just venting and tired. Go figure.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
exhausted.
working two jobs is exhausting. but with it, ive lost ten pounds in the past two months! just 15 more to go!!!!!! 20 if im lucky!!!!! i love it at davids. the girls are so fun to work with and i can actually relate to them.
i miss spending time with my bear. i am jealous of those who get to spend time with their children all day every day. those who get to do that take it for granted. whoever reads this, please, don't take your children for granted, or the fact taht you see them all the time. cherish it. my daughter grows bigger every time i see her, and i miss her more and more every day.
i miss spending time with my bear. i am jealous of those who get to spend time with their children all day every day. those who get to do that take it for granted. whoever reads this, please, don't take your children for granted, or the fact taht you see them all the time. cherish it. my daughter grows bigger every time i see her, and i miss her more and more every day.
Monday, February 7, 2011
as i lie here
As i lie here next to troy, listening to his steady breathing, i realize how wonderful my life is right now. i honestly could not be happier. and now my computer is dying. all done.
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