New year new name

New year, New name, New self

I am trying to forgive and forget, but as I may forgive, it is nearly impossible to forget.  The way my heart broke, and the tears fell when I saw what was written, can never be erased.  It wasn't just pain from the way someone was talking about the way I PARENT my child, but the fact that the words came from someone who, until that point, I had trusted with my life, I could not forgive right away. There was such a feeling of anger and grief that took a very long time to over come. And still, that feeling of betrayal and anguish, cannot be forgotten.  Now, it has been almost two years, and I have moved on. And with having moved on, I need to get these words out. 

We may have had some good times, don't get me wrong. You were so much fun, and you and I had some wonderful times.  But in between those times, were the times where it was not so perfect.  Times where I was chastised for doing things that made me happy. ( teasing, and being made to feel guilty)

I am not here to defend myself, and I am not here to rail on the bad things. Rather, to clear the air. So with these last words, I hope the air is clear.

I hope that you are happy with your life, and your marriage and your children.  I hope that your children grow healthy, strong, smart, and fun and that you savor each moment with them.  I pray that your life with your family is long and fulfilling, and that you find peace like I have.  Maybe someday, if we see each other, it would not be an awkward passing glance, but a nice hello. 

Stay happy, Stay healthy, stay faithful,

fran